heyys.

wednesday, mark of half-week.
2 more days left.
4 tests to do.
zzz.

this time tests I nvr really study
as hard as I used to last times for tests.
there's this weird feeling in me
when i don't study hard for tests.
this cold, empty feeling.
like when your heart is hollowed into a vacuum.
why am I feeling this way?
afraid to do tests,
afraid to make mistakes now.
there's just no space to make mistakes anywhere in the year.
every test is graded.
although small percentage but every small percent adds up to the grand total at the end.
only the best make it at the end of this 6 years of IP programme in RV.
or maybe it's the kiasuness I'm getting into.
must always be the best of everything done.

or maybe it's just me being weird.

just finished EOM.
haha, don't even know if correct because I never hand up to tchr before yet.
tmrw have geog and math test, back-to-back.
later i'll go revise.
then the day after tmrw we have LA and bio.
all scary subjects especially LA.
argh, the feeling's coming back.
too long nvr do test luhh larr.
zzz.

tday we learn about paradox in LA, at least for a while
saw a ppt on paradox and was wondering how true everything was.
it was true.
the more we learn, but the less common sense we have. (wj's pm)
the better we become, the more we fear. (wj's pm)
all was very true.
I came up with one to describe my feeling now.
the more you worry for the test, the less marks you get.
haha, the less you worry, the more marks you get.
of course that's not true. ;D

wah tday thighs and legs damn pain.
yongzhi, yongyu also.
i think all the badminton sec 3 ppl also leg pain.
do stretches to walk around 3 courts for 10 rounds.
the knee bend thing.
zzz.
my pants almost ripped luhh.
haha. ;D

watched brainiac yesterday.
yesterday episode was last episode.
so it was sports day brainiac.
haha, so nice luhh brainiac!
they tried to fire penalties with rockets attached to soccer balls.
haha, the post blast broken.
oh and the jon tickle experiment.
he tried to test to see which emotion was most ideal to extend his athletical ability.
he tried fear, pride, confident, sad.
but only angry worked.
he did his maximum ability to lift 40kg weights when he was angry.
haha, angry when he saw his girlfriend kiss another man.


okay, that's about it.
gotta go try contain this weird feeling
by studying.
there's no cure for this except studying.
byes, good luck for tests.